Warning, Emotional rant ahead, I just needa dump, skip if you like, may or may not be relevent

Damn it, Damn it Damn it.


What the hell is going on? is it just every one decided to fly off the handle at once? People are being sad, or pissy, or a combination of the two.

Okay, so most of them have pretty good reasons, and there isn't much I can do. I try to cheer people up, or keep things up beat, because that’s all I really can do.

Sustaining my cheerful self is draining me, I'm trying to give people my happiness, because I hate it when my friends are sad, or angry, or they don’t think they're good enough, or that no one cares.

I care.

Need a shoulder to cry on? I'm here.
Need someone to bitch to? I'm here.
Need to not talk about some thing, tell me what not to talk about, then I'll find something else to talk about.
Just need an ear? I can do that to; I can shut up, believe it or not.

I just want my friends to be happy.

I want to burn all the whore preps that cause us to nerd rage, cry, scream, rant and make our lives more difficult.

I hate being alone, I don't want my friends to feel alone, because I know that feeling.
It sucks.

It sucks to be standing in a room full of laughing people, but still feel so lonely.

Maybe I talk to so and so more then so and so.

But I still care, I just...

I want to know what's wrong.
I want to know what's hurting you.

I want to laugh with you, even if it doesn't make the hurt go away,
It helps a bit, don't you think?

Congrads if you made it to the end of this, because I don’t think I’ll be reading this again, I just needed to spill my guts, hopefully by the time any one reads this, my outlook will be better.

-Grace

Stress

Every one around me is stressed in some way, or depressed, or just not happy with who they are.

It makes me want to kick some thing, to scream.

I feel bad for knowing what I want a bit, I feel bad for beign Lazy this year and school and taking on hard fucking class, and stressing so much over it this week end that I snapped at one of my friends over some thing she fairly often.

I'm a factory of sunshine, but I feel like I'm failing, I can't get my friends to see the better side of things.

I see people that I know are friends, or used to be, walkign side by side, saying nothing, just listning to ipods and texting.

The world is starting to isolate people, and lord I would feel so alone with out the Circle.

Some times I still do.

Any who, off to do landry for the trip this week end with Sara, we're gunna have a blast. :D

I was bored

Which Major Arcana Tarot Card Are You? created with QuizFarm.com

You scored as 0 - The Fool The Fool is the most complex and most contradictory of all the Tarot cards. "I am not a number, I am a free man". The Fool represents naivety and childlike innocence - yet the Fool is wise. He carries only what possessions he really needs He journeys through life, tasting everything it has to offer then letting it go and moving on. The Fool is a risk taker, often shown with one foot over a cliff showing us every new beginning has a risk. Whether the Fool represents opportunity or danger one thing is clear: this world needs more fools. III - The Empress 88% 0 - The Fool 88% II - The High Priestess 75% XIX: The Sun 75% I - Magician 75% IV - The Emperor 63% VIII - Strength 56% XIII: Death 50% VI: The Lovers 50% XVI: The Tower 44% XI: Justice 44% XV: The Devil 31% X - Wheel of Fortune 25%

Maybe this year I'll do a Tarot card project with cosplayers, take picters and make them into cards....I dunno we'll see how things go

I wish I could do shit like this.

Cloud's Sampler from Ryan Cousins on Vimeo.

THat's all really, oh, and birthday in two days

Grace is amused.

First off This is really amusing me, it guesses gender of the writer bassed on the text it's given. Every thing I run threw it that I've writen comes out female, I've run some of the circle's blog posts, Two or Sara's, two of Woody's and two of Michelle's stories. Here's how it came out.
Sara: 0 female, 2 male
Woody: 1 female, 1 male
Michelle: 0 female, 2 male
Then I got distracted by shiny things and ended up here.

Ugh, I'm not lookign forward to school registration, that will not be happy happy joy joy time.
I have a wedding shower to go to on Sunday, the Weding it's self on the 20th.
Then my birthday on the 24th!
My Mom Keeps askign me what I'm going to do for my Birthday, I dunno, mos tlikely just go see Batman with all of you or some thign like that, (you're all just that awsome)

Now I'm going to go read a book or go do some thing productive (Hey, stop laughing, really!)

Thought you all might get a kick outa this...

Dunno why. :D

Speaking of why, why can't Helen Keller drive?

In other news Embroidory is owning me.

And Michelle, I really enjoyed your last story, though I don't think I'll ever look at my lawn the same, keep it up. :D

One anouther note, I'll be gone till the 25th, so all of you crazy kids have fun at Jew's Birthday for me, alright? I'll try to call.
And Jew, Happy b-day! Rember, you're a great artist and an all around awsome person. :D

Peace out.
PS Hey Sara, get to work on Cloud so you can start Link!

I'm up-dating?

Sorta, just throwing in random stuff from the internet.
"Man, on the internet, age has no meaning. One person in their thirties could have the utmost respect to some kid in high school. It's like we're in a classless-- OH. MY. GOD. THE INTERNET IS COMMUNISM???"

so...does that make us all Communists?


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I pulled this out of a Conversation I had with Michelle on MSN

"I was deeply thinking about the line between adult hood and childhood was, and how they criss cross all the time. That and how the perfect child acts very adult and many ideal adults are in truth very childish. I was thinking about it because I was thinking about my very existence is an irony to me. So many people that don’t even half know me say I'm young women, or grown up like or such, when really I’m very childish, not always in the best ways either
how do you grow up without losing your ability to enjoy small things that only kids seem to be able to?"

Then there was this,
Sara says:"
oh and Byakuya got a 10/10 on 4chan's scale
Grace says:
well duh. He's asian, angst/emo and OP
what a good chunk of the fan girls go for!"

Well... that's abotu all that's interesting for now.