Question time!

1. What was your first impression of Sara?
2. Will Nikki eat those green eggs and ham?
3. Amanda and Paige are forced to roleplay out a verbal couple fight. Who gets to play the wife?
4. Oh no, Paige got kidnapped by aliens! What do you say once they get back?
5. Autumn suddenly knows all your secrets. What do you have to say about that?
6. What would you do if you hadn't met Woody?
7. Would you marry Michelle?
8. Who would you rather get stuck in handcuffs with, Trenton or Autumn?
9. Is Kraut your best friend?
10. Have you ever had lunch together with Katie?
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1) That was middle school, uhhhh… “She’s friendly, oh hey, she likes anime!”
2)Only if she made them.
3)Paige, unless it’s a Friday, then she’s the man
4) Did you meet the Doctor? Any one from Star Trek? You okay? What did you bring us?
5) I trust her not to go around telling everyone (unless they should be told)
6)hmmmm, have a lot less sexual jokes. No, really, I have no idea.
7) No, I love her, not that way though (well, maybe on Thursdays)
8)Autumn, I’ve known her longer
9) Nope
10) No, but we should.

I got all these questions from here http://mct421.deviantart.com/art/Question-Meme-Generator-69266481

Have fun :P

How did I get this out of trying to write a personal statment prompt?

This is hard for me to do when I’m not sure about my world. Everything feels turned on its head, as if I’m in some Alice in Wonderland bull shit. I’m rather sick of it. How can I “be myself” or “express me” when I’m not even sure who “me” is? I feel like I have a name that doesn’t fit my face, like you ever met someone that you think ‘oh they look like a Jessica, not a Brittany,’? Kinda how I’m feeling, like I’m jammed into clothing that doesn’t fit, the sphere in the square hole syndrome. How do I stop feeling like this?
Ah, Identity crisis.

Stupid normy kids

I don't get why people get angry at me being happy, I just don't. Some one asked me today why I'm so happy, in a very angry tone. I honestly can't give that a good reason, I mean it's just I don't have a reason to be sad, being apathetic seems boring, and being angry all the time just burns up to much energy, I'm not productive when I'm angry. I think part of it is that life sucks enough with out me making my self more miserable. Having my friends is enough for me for now, being kept fed (even if I do tend to bitch about food) is enough, having a home to go to is enough for now, it's my goal to make this year the most memorable for the circle.

"Remember, Man, as you pass by
As you are now, so once was I
As I am now, so you shall be
Prepare for Death and follow me"
"To follow you I'll not consent
Until I know the way you went."
From a tombestone.

Posting to avoid bed time.

I'm scared to sleep, I'm scared to think. I feel like sadness in pulling me down, maybe I've just bee keeping my happy face up to long? I'm startign to feel imaterial, like I don't really exist. I don't feel empty, I feel like the basics of what makes up me are all that's left, and are ready to be blown away be the strong winds in the terible and lonely place. I don't have a name for it, not exsistance, I don't feel like I have the right to call the state I'm in right now exsisting. Surviving might be a better term.

Did I lose your trust? Hell, I don't know if I've ever even give you the link to this blog, but I'm talkgin abot it any ways. If this is so big, I've been deeply involved in this for so long, why did I have to find out in such a round about way? Can I even bring this up to you next time we talk? Or will I be afraid of hurting you, so I'll shove what I want to say down for the first time in a very long time.
"Why don't you smile?"
"The question is, Why do you choose to?" (quote from I have no idea, it was on Sara's blog)

I smile because I know how to do little else to help.

What other role do I play? if some one should happen to figure this out before me, can you let me know?

rambling late at night(late for me), fun stuff man.

Nope, that's all

I just had one of those really odd memories.

Just form when I was little, I remember watching my Mom fold laundry. I was amazed at how she always made them so perfect looking, nice and neat little rectangles for shirts and such. I tried to do it, but I was clumsy and couldn’t, so I gave up.

I guess there’s a connection, I’m doing my laundry now, folding stuff, thinking about how I still can’t make it look as nice as my Mom does.

I guess it comes with years of practice.

What I’m trying to get at is, I was amazed by someone folding laundry.

I miss that childish sense of wonder, or being amazed by just life.
By the sun and the trees.
That still happens for me I guess, I’ll be walking somewhere, and for one split second, awe washing over me, as I realize where I am, and what it really looks like, not just that, but the smells, and the sounds. And I try to figure out how to fit in, and then I realize, I’m over thinking that childish awe.
I don’t need a reason to take it all in, I just need to take it all in.

And now for some thing completly diferent

Now that emotional rant is done with, I'm stoked about Saturday, Sara and I are heading down to little Tokyo by Metro (Train!!) Sara got recomandations on where to go from Kerwin, Ren and I think that's it. I'm lookg forward to some real Ramen, mmm Ramen, have to get money from my Mom though, or get her to take me to the bank at least. I'm hoping to go and at least see the fashion district. (A nerd that's inot fashion, who da thunk it?)

But Weird Al tomarow, that's going to own face

I needa figure out what I'm good at fast so I can make a living off it :P

Two blog posts in 24 hours, I'm kinda sad, ain't I? XP

-Grace

Warning, Emotional rant ahead, I just needa dump, skip if you like, may or may not be relevent

Damn it, Damn it Damn it.


What the hell is going on? is it just every one decided to fly off the handle at once? People are being sad, or pissy, or a combination of the two.

Okay, so most of them have pretty good reasons, and there isn't much I can do. I try to cheer people up, or keep things up beat, because that’s all I really can do.

Sustaining my cheerful self is draining me, I'm trying to give people my happiness, because I hate it when my friends are sad, or angry, or they don’t think they're good enough, or that no one cares.

I care.

Need a shoulder to cry on? I'm here.
Need someone to bitch to? I'm here.
Need to not talk about some thing, tell me what not to talk about, then I'll find something else to talk about.
Just need an ear? I can do that to; I can shut up, believe it or not.

I just want my friends to be happy.

I want to burn all the whore preps that cause us to nerd rage, cry, scream, rant and make our lives more difficult.

I hate being alone, I don't want my friends to feel alone, because I know that feeling.
It sucks.

It sucks to be standing in a room full of laughing people, but still feel so lonely.

Maybe I talk to so and so more then so and so.

But I still care, I just...

I want to know what's wrong.
I want to know what's hurting you.

I want to laugh with you, even if it doesn't make the hurt go away,
It helps a bit, don't you think?

Congrads if you made it to the end of this, because I don’t think I’ll be reading this again, I just needed to spill my guts, hopefully by the time any one reads this, my outlook will be better.

-Grace

Stress

Every one around me is stressed in some way, or depressed, or just not happy with who they are.

It makes me want to kick some thing, to scream.

I feel bad for knowing what I want a bit, I feel bad for beign Lazy this year and school and taking on hard fucking class, and stressing so much over it this week end that I snapped at one of my friends over some thing she fairly often.

I'm a factory of sunshine, but I feel like I'm failing, I can't get my friends to see the better side of things.

I see people that I know are friends, or used to be, walkign side by side, saying nothing, just listning to ipods and texting.

The world is starting to isolate people, and lord I would feel so alone with out the Circle.

Some times I still do.

Any who, off to do landry for the trip this week end with Sara, we're gunna have a blast. :D

I was bored

Which Major Arcana Tarot Card Are You? created with QuizFarm.com

You scored as 0 - The Fool The Fool is the most complex and most contradictory of all the Tarot cards. "I am not a number, I am a free man". The Fool represents naivety and childlike innocence - yet the Fool is wise. He carries only what possessions he really needs He journeys through life, tasting everything it has to offer then letting it go and moving on. The Fool is a risk taker, often shown with one foot over a cliff showing us every new beginning has a risk. Whether the Fool represents opportunity or danger one thing is clear: this world needs more fools. III - The Empress 88% 0 - The Fool 88% II - The High Priestess 75% XIX: The Sun 75% I - Magician 75% IV - The Emperor 63% VIII - Strength 56% XIII: Death 50% VI: The Lovers 50% XVI: The Tower 44% XI: Justice 44% XV: The Devil 31% X - Wheel of Fortune 25%

Maybe this year I'll do a Tarot card project with cosplayers, take picters and make them into cards....I dunno we'll see how things go

I wish I could do shit like this.

Cloud's Sampler from Ryan Cousins on Vimeo.

THat's all really, oh, and birthday in two days

Grace is amused.

First off This is really amusing me, it guesses gender of the writer bassed on the text it's given. Every thing I run threw it that I've writen comes out female, I've run some of the circle's blog posts, Two or Sara's, two of Woody's and two of Michelle's stories. Here's how it came out.
Sara: 0 female, 2 male
Woody: 1 female, 1 male
Michelle: 0 female, 2 male
Then I got distracted by shiny things and ended up here.

Ugh, I'm not lookign forward to school registration, that will not be happy happy joy joy time.
I have a wedding shower to go to on Sunday, the Weding it's self on the 20th.
Then my birthday on the 24th!
My Mom Keeps askign me what I'm going to do for my Birthday, I dunno, mos tlikely just go see Batman with all of you or some thign like that, (you're all just that awsome)

Now I'm going to go read a book or go do some thing productive (Hey, stop laughing, really!)

Thought you all might get a kick outa this...

Dunno why. :D

Speaking of why, why can't Helen Keller drive?

In other news Embroidory is owning me.

And Michelle, I really enjoyed your last story, though I don't think I'll ever look at my lawn the same, keep it up. :D

One anouther note, I'll be gone till the 25th, so all of you crazy kids have fun at Jew's Birthday for me, alright? I'll try to call.
And Jew, Happy b-day! Rember, you're a great artist and an all around awsome person. :D

Peace out.
PS Hey Sara, get to work on Cloud so you can start Link!

I'm up-dating?

Sorta, just throwing in random stuff from the internet.
"Man, on the internet, age has no meaning. One person in their thirties could have the utmost respect to some kid in high school. It's like we're in a classless-- OH. MY. GOD. THE INTERNET IS COMMUNISM???"

so...does that make us all Communists?


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I pulled this out of a Conversation I had with Michelle on MSN

"I was deeply thinking about the line between adult hood and childhood was, and how they criss cross all the time. That and how the perfect child acts very adult and many ideal adults are in truth very childish. I was thinking about it because I was thinking about my very existence is an irony to me. So many people that don’t even half know me say I'm young women, or grown up like or such, when really I’m very childish, not always in the best ways either
how do you grow up without losing your ability to enjoy small things that only kids seem to be able to?"

Then there was this,
Sara says:"
oh and Byakuya got a 10/10 on 4chan's scale
Grace says:
well duh. He's asian, angst/emo and OP
what a good chunk of the fan girls go for!"

Well... that's abotu all that's interesting for now.

cosplay related rant

I swear I have cosplay faries in my ouse or some thing. When I left the room at 10:45, that pattern wasn't pinned to that cloth . When I came back at 11:30, it was all pinned up, nice and neat. I asked my Mom and she didn't do it, my brother and sister where asleep (they wouldn't touch it any ways) and I sure as heck didn't do it. Oo

So, on the note of patterns, it's a PAIN to find the right one to work with for this guy:

Which, in thoery isn't that hard, but pea coat patterns are hard to come by at this time of year. (yes, it's called a peat coat, it just has short sleves and a zetta tall colar, some thing a pea coat doesn't normaly have...so it's more like a pea...shirt?) So if I go to Joanns today I maybe pick up some beading stuff to make his bracelets, maybe try to find his hat?
Why am I worrying about this? It isn't even MY cosplay. *facepalm*

Any ways, don't needa worry about Woddy and Zell untill after she's back from Italy (lucky her)

I'll be finished with Jack's Haiori today (hopefully, if I don't get distracted by to many....oh shiny DS!)
Then Beat for me:

Need the two chains, the charms that go with that his wrist band thing, wig and beanie....not much to do ><

The important questions are not the ones that have answers....

but the ones you can live with. No idea what the heck that means, some one pu it on the note pad on my computer, so I used it,I'll let you deside.

I think I have a new favorite quote 'Take my advice, I'm not using it," It was on a card my Grammy sent my lil bro.

Um... let's see, needs more sleep, need clean my room, needa finish some thign for a friend....
Speeking of Friends, I love all of you, I really do.
Some times you drive me Batty,
I drive you all Batty hell of a lot more often, (was that gramaticly correct?)
and we all love each other any ways.

You're all awsome, keep moving forward, who knows, maybe we'll get some where?
/end sap/

okay, off to clean then

I'm really bad at this blog thing....

Maybe because I never feel like I have any thing interesting to say for blogs? Hope my friends don't miss the iorny of me not havign a ton to say (when do I shut up?) eh, I don't know.
Any ways, Proud of Woddy for helping lower our world suck levels. She's awsome (I mean that)
I should be finishing my writing assiginment for Creative writing, I just don't feel very creative...
Oh, and I need a pocket Nikki to do my final for me in chem.

Peace out and all that Jazz

EDIT: Having Sara over for breakfast tomarow, this'll be interesting indeed. Needs moar 777 fan art, and I'm just obsesed with The World Ends With You

Ya know, point out the obvious but...

Being sick sucks. Family went dirt bike riding, so I get alone time. But I'm sick so most of that is pent being bored form not being able to do shit. Though I did learn some thing today.

Binding your chest to fit some thign for Cosplay is a REALLY Bad idea. (shut up Woody, I know you're laughign at me just because I have to bind)

Oh and I spent the morning editign articals in The World Ends With You Wikia.....

In other news...

Weird Al is going to be at the AV Fair this August.

Weird Al....in the AV? August is about to be alot less boring! :D corse that's months away for now. needa focuse on finishing school first. Least I don't have summer school.

any ways, food...what do we have? *wanders off*

Great day, so much to do, oh ya, I need sleep...

The World Ends With You, Great game it is. :D For the DS. Good story, good game play, Great costume designs.


Saw Iorn Man today with Sara, Nikki, Woody, Webster, Paige and kaitlen today. :P best Movie ever! Sara and Woody where right on spot, Robert Downey Jr. is amazing lookign and an even better actor.





But Man I'm tired, I shouldn't be....but I am. So more sleep for me tonight, after I pick all the buttons up off my floor (don't ask) and maybe work a bit on one of my costumes...or Maybe the one I should be doing for a friend.





*sigh* there needs to be more hours in the day.





Any ways, enough complaining!





The School year is almost over and the weather is warming up! Yay for warm Weather!

Cosplay shopping and the Best Play Ever

Blogs... I feel my inner Emo stirring....must...resist....
:D
Just kidding, jokes aside this'll be a new thing for me, I'll try to update as much as I can....So, went to the mall today and I discovered two things
1) women’s Fitness tank tops are all REALLY tight
2) Men’s fitness tank top arm holes go half way down my rib cage.

So I just bought a bunch of T-shirts and I'll cut off the selves, hem it up and I'll be down with that for Beat. Wonder if that embroidery stand would do his skull beanie for me.....
ANY who, enough on that.

While Sara, Prances, Smity, Woody, Autumn, Jew went to see Iron Man (which apparently is pretty awesome) Paige, Nikki, Michel, Eric, Brendon Taylor and I went to see The schools production of "the Crucible"
I know it sounds lame but it was AMAZING, all the actors was great, a few of them really cute... (*okay, one was really cute, but who's counting?)
Really all I have to say for now.
Peace.