Nope, that's all

I just had one of those really odd memories.

Just form when I was little, I remember watching my Mom fold laundry. I was amazed at how she always made them so perfect looking, nice and neat little rectangles for shirts and such. I tried to do it, but I was clumsy and couldn’t, so I gave up.

I guess there’s a connection, I’m doing my laundry now, folding stuff, thinking about how I still can’t make it look as nice as my Mom does.

I guess it comes with years of practice.

What I’m trying to get at is, I was amazed by someone folding laundry.

I miss that childish sense of wonder, or being amazed by just life.
By the sun and the trees.
That still happens for me I guess, I’ll be walking somewhere, and for one split second, awe washing over me, as I realize where I am, and what it really looks like, not just that, but the smells, and the sounds. And I try to figure out how to fit in, and then I realize, I’m over thinking that childish awe.
I don’t need a reason to take it all in, I just need to take it all in.

And now for some thing completly diferent

Now that emotional rant is done with, I'm stoked about Saturday, Sara and I are heading down to little Tokyo by Metro (Train!!) Sara got recomandations on where to go from Kerwin, Ren and I think that's it. I'm lookg forward to some real Ramen, mmm Ramen, have to get money from my Mom though, or get her to take me to the bank at least. I'm hoping to go and at least see the fashion district. (A nerd that's inot fashion, who da thunk it?)

But Weird Al tomarow, that's going to own face

I needa figure out what I'm good at fast so I can make a living off it :P

Two blog posts in 24 hours, I'm kinda sad, ain't I? XP

-Grace

Warning, Emotional rant ahead, I just needa dump, skip if you like, may or may not be relevent

Damn it, Damn it Damn it.


What the hell is going on? is it just every one decided to fly off the handle at once? People are being sad, or pissy, or a combination of the two.

Okay, so most of them have pretty good reasons, and there isn't much I can do. I try to cheer people up, or keep things up beat, because that’s all I really can do.

Sustaining my cheerful self is draining me, I'm trying to give people my happiness, because I hate it when my friends are sad, or angry, or they don’t think they're good enough, or that no one cares.

I care.

Need a shoulder to cry on? I'm here.
Need someone to bitch to? I'm here.
Need to not talk about some thing, tell me what not to talk about, then I'll find something else to talk about.
Just need an ear? I can do that to; I can shut up, believe it or not.

I just want my friends to be happy.

I want to burn all the whore preps that cause us to nerd rage, cry, scream, rant and make our lives more difficult.

I hate being alone, I don't want my friends to feel alone, because I know that feeling.
It sucks.

It sucks to be standing in a room full of laughing people, but still feel so lonely.

Maybe I talk to so and so more then so and so.

But I still care, I just...

I want to know what's wrong.
I want to know what's hurting you.

I want to laugh with you, even if it doesn't make the hurt go away,
It helps a bit, don't you think?

Congrads if you made it to the end of this, because I don’t think I’ll be reading this again, I just needed to spill my guts, hopefully by the time any one reads this, my outlook will be better.

-Grace

Stress

Every one around me is stressed in some way, or depressed, or just not happy with who they are.

It makes me want to kick some thing, to scream.

I feel bad for knowing what I want a bit, I feel bad for beign Lazy this year and school and taking on hard fucking class, and stressing so much over it this week end that I snapped at one of my friends over some thing she fairly often.

I'm a factory of sunshine, but I feel like I'm failing, I can't get my friends to see the better side of things.

I see people that I know are friends, or used to be, walkign side by side, saying nothing, just listning to ipods and texting.

The world is starting to isolate people, and lord I would feel so alone with out the Circle.

Some times I still do.

Any who, off to do landry for the trip this week end with Sara, we're gunna have a blast. :D

I was bored

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You scored as 0 - The Fool The Fool is the most complex and most contradictory of all the Tarot cards. "I am not a number, I am a free man". The Fool represents naivety and childlike innocence - yet the Fool is wise. He carries only what possessions he really needs He journeys through life, tasting everything it has to offer then letting it go and moving on. The Fool is a risk taker, often shown with one foot over a cliff showing us every new beginning has a risk. Whether the Fool represents opportunity or danger one thing is clear: this world needs more fools. III - The Empress 88% 0 - The Fool 88% II - The High Priestess 75% XIX: The Sun 75% I - Magician 75% IV - The Emperor 63% VIII - Strength 56% XIII: Death 50% VI: The Lovers 50% XVI: The Tower 44% XI: Justice 44% XV: The Devil 31% X - Wheel of Fortune 25%

Maybe this year I'll do a Tarot card project with cosplayers, take picters and make them into cards....I dunno we'll see how things go